2 week wait.

I HATE the 2 week wait lol. I over think every little thing that I feel during the 2 week wait. I just feel like this isn't our month. I don't want to be a downer or negative I just feel like I know my body really well and I don't think this is our month. I flipped to an ad today with a middle-aged couple living in a city and thought, "maybe being childfree would be okay." I don't feel this yet, but i am wondering if facing this reality would be a step forward. I don't want to give up, but how far does this infertility pursuit go? We will see how the next few months unfold! Praying we get our BFP soon!

visit to the doctors.

This isn't my ultrasound, but this picture almost looks like my ovary's.

I went to the doctors on Monday to get an ultrasound done so we could see if I the new medication I was on this cycle was working. This ultrasound was uncomfortable but we did see 1 egg in my right ovary that was considered a mature follicle it was 18'16mm. This was cycle day 10 and I guess follicle will continue to grow 1-2mm a day until you ovulate. By the time I ovulate my follicle should be a nice size. Now for the news. I have PCOS and I new that because of blood work but I had never seen what my ovaries look like because of my PCOS, well let me just say that I would have been happier if I never got to see what they looked like. My ovaries look like Swiss cheese. my left ovary is filled with cyst, it looked like I have 15-20 on that one ovary alone but my right one didn't look as bad and that was the ovary that was producing my wonderful follicle. I am on cycle day 18 and still no positive ovulation test, I'm hoping it comes soon! If we don't get pregnant this cycle for whatever reason I am moving onto HCG injections. We are praying we get or BFP soon!